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Just what makes a person bad? What does it take to be considered good? Earlier I had the privilege of getting an answer from my husband. It was not what I wanted to hear but I’m grateful of the fact that it was an honest one. “Am I really a bad person?” To this question, I got both Yes and No. Yes, because no matter how good of a person I think I am, which I know I am not, people are not going to see me the way I see myself. No, because no matter how bad people perceive me to be, whether there is any truth to that perception, I am, like most people are, a good person. I recently started to reach out to a person who used to be an integral part of my life. She is my mother’s sister. She is my Aunt. She was my bestfriend for a long time. She but was. I used the word WAS because sadly, she is no longer part of my life. Not that I chose it. If I can live yet again that part of my life where everything, that has to do with her, started to crumble, I will change one thing. But like a flood that washes off every remnants of a place, our relationship too was awashed along with the bitter reality of each other’s pride. I tried my best to make things a little better, livable at that, to nothing. Right, our conscience makes us realize our part in the mistake but what happens to the other naked part? Maybe, there really are things that can not be undone no matter how much effort you put into it. No, maybe is an understatement. I do not know how much longer I have to live in this beautiful world. I do not know for sure how many people I will come to hurt unintentionally. I’m certain mistakes are just around the corner waiting to crash in on me. I’m sure I will have to make decisions later and tomorrow and they can be right or wrong. Whatever tomorrow brings for me, my stand will never change. I will always stand on my decision, be it right or wrong. Some of you may think what an arrogant of a person I am. For those very few who know the real deal, the perspective may be a totally different one. But then again, we are free to think.
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what had happened between you and your uant is not a big issue or a big problem rather, why? because its only forgiveness is the answre.let the past put behind,burried it and look forward.as you said you know the real deal but then again you cant denied that things happened for the reason and a purposed, sorry to say this but when i read the whole letter you hide something,which made me think that you dont tell the real score of what exactly happened.i think you are a part to be blame too.anyway what ever it was you cant denied also that she is a part of your family its a fact of life. good luck and cheer!
utah solomon 01.02.09 @ 3:36 am